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Saturday, September 5, 2009

The thing I am most ashamed of...

There is this one thing that i am most ashamed of in my life - one thing that i cannot forget - one thing that i will regret my whole life.

I don't remember when it started or when it ended.I guess, I was studying in 4th standard at that time.Suddenly, I started having this habit of stealing things from others. It was like I suddenly became kleptomaniac. The things I took were always an eraser or a pencil sharpener. I don't remember stealing anything else other than that. And ya, I found a great place to hide my loot too - in the flower pot that is kept at the front doorstep of my house. I still remember my thoughts then. I was pretty sure that nobody will be able to find those there. Actually it was so easy to spot.

Anyways one day my brother or sister found that out(by the way, i have an younger twin brother and sister). They asked me about that. This is the part i really regret about. I convinced my brother and sister that taking things from others was good and made them do the same. Big brothers words, they believed and started helping me out. Our collection started growing. Before this went long, a vacation came up. I don't remember whether it was Christmas or Onam holz, but anyways it was a 10 day holz. The first day after holz from school i brought more stuff for our collection. But then brother and sister hadn't brought anything. I asked them why they didn't bring any. They questioned me back for the first time ever - y should they do this. I still don't know what made them question me. Anyways that question brought some light into my senses. Thats when I realised that what I was doing is wrong. From that moment on that habit stopped and till date I havn't repeated that mistake to the best of my knowledge.

One thing I am still unsure of is that whether my parents know about this. The place i choose to hide the loot was stupid, anybody could have spotted it easily. Either my parents where too busy to spot it or they never asked me about it. Don't know if they ever questioned my brother and sister and if that is why they asked for a reason when i asked them to do it again. Anyways, I still think about it a lot and I am happy that my brother and sister could bring back some sense into me. But I will always regret for making my little brother and sister do this.

- Posted by Kattooran

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